Okay so here's the money (oh damn the money) situation as it stands now. This is for my records more than anything so you can just ignore this. I just need to keep track somewhere a little more permanent.
July rent paid
August rent paid
I still owe Kieta $185 for damages from Socks to the old house.
Plus utilities etc.
Computer
I paid $300 upfront in
April: Paid $100
May: Paid $100
Total: $500
I still owe $370
Monday, August 09, 2004
Just random bickering.
I have not talked to my father in years and there has been no effort on either side to contact one another. The last time I heard from him was via email and quite sometime ago. He even came to Arizona for my brother’s hearing and he made no attempt to contact me to get together. So I say if they are not going to bother…they are not worth the effort. Fuck 'em. Fuckwittage. Davy had checked his email on my sister’s computer and had left the browser open. So Anna had gone through his emails and read them. She came across one from the alleged father that said some very unkindly things. “Carol is sorry for ever trusting Michelle. She says she seemed so sincere when she talked to her, and agreed that you would be better off living with us. I guess we finally realized how she is just like her mother in her ability to deceive. I think we have changed our mind about paying for her schooling if she lives with us. I guess we realize now that she is and has been only using us. There is no give and take, only take. I hope you are beyond that. Love, Dad and Carol.”
Now Carol’s email (stepmom), “David, I’m really sorry. Michelle seems so sincere these days-it sounded like she was for you living with us. But I guess she really can’t be trusted. Bummer. I hope you didn’t get into too much trouble over this.”
I had talked to Carol over the phone and at the time Davy had gone out to visit them in Portland, Or and he did not want to come home to his mother's. He wanted to stay out there, but Doofis (Aka sperm donor, Aka alleged father) and Betty are both unfit parents and Davy and I should of been put somewhere else far away from both fuckwittages. So I had told Carol that Davy should stay there and then I had talked to my sister and I changed my mind. Because sperm donor is a child molester (once a sex offender, always a sex offender. Just ask a therapist they'll tell you the same thing.) So even though Betty is fucked up I agreed with Anna that Doofis would be worse in the long run. So Carol had been all excited about me agreeing with them and then I changed my mind. But it was not like I was medling, so I do not understand why they got so angry.
I remember when I was little, four at the OLDEST. In our house in Colorado Springs, Co. I had loved to vacuum the stairs and I was downstairs vacuuming. I was then playing with god what are the called. It was a piece of cardboard with a plastic red pen like object and there was a thin sheet on grey paper like plastic sheet that had a black piece underneath. You would draw on it and then lift the gray sheet to 'erase' it. Well anyways I was playing with that and trying to show Doofis it and I just remember him being 'busy' and blowing me off.
Another time I was trying to show him something and he was reading the newspaper and in that "in a minute" which really meant...soon you will forget about it and you will stop bothering me in the meantime. And he was always working on his lame ass jeep, that would be a another good reason to just blow me off. But my favorite was when Betty was doing some bill crap, probably going through the mail and paying off bills. I am not sure though I was still quite young. And she told Doofis to take us to the Wild Animal Park and he's like "Why don't you?!" Hello. I am right fucking here, I hate you ALL. So she was bitching at him and saying she was actually busy and wanted him to take Davy and I. I am not sure if he did or not in the end. But that's the part that sticks. I hate parents. They fuck up their kids so well.
I remember him crying when he was moving out when they were getting a divorce. Davy and I were playing Terminator on Super NES. I just remember being mad because I had to pause my game. He was crying blah blah and I was like whatever you don't give a shit. I was like in 3rd grade and I already knew.
As I aged I had Betty telling Davy and I that Doofis did not give a shit about us. I had always told myself she was wrong, I felt that somewhere some part had to care a little bit even though all of the signs pointed to NEGATIVE. So those emails were like a slap in the face, I had already known for years but I guess I was in denile some part. I would agree with Betty but hold a sliver of hope inside that she could not see or touch. Then I came to my senses and realized, I don't think he ever cared or will ever care. It was the worse stab in the back I have ever had and believe me I have had my share.
I feel so stupid for protecting both of them. I wish I had lied and made-up a story that Doofis, and told them about Betty. I should have just let CPS take Davy and myself. Both of em are definately fucked so what to lose? But we'd always lie to CPS about Betty and if they found out about Betty and her lack or parenting we could of ended up at Doofis's. And I didn't want that, even less than Betty's.
Good times. I will add more here later. I am bored for now.
I have not talked to my father in years and there has been no effort on either side to contact one another. The last time I heard from him was via email and quite sometime ago. He even came to Arizona for my brother’s hearing and he made no attempt to contact me to get together. So I say if they are not going to bother…they are not worth the effort. Fuck 'em. Fuckwittage. Davy had checked his email on my sister’s computer and had left the browser open. So Anna had gone through his emails and read them. She came across one from the alleged father that said some very unkindly things. “Carol is sorry for ever trusting Michelle. She says she seemed so sincere when she talked to her, and agreed that you would be better off living with us. I guess we finally realized how she is just like her mother in her ability to deceive. I think we have changed our mind about paying for her schooling if she lives with us. I guess we realize now that she is and has been only using us. There is no give and take, only take. I hope you are beyond that. Love, Dad and Carol.”
Now Carol’s email (stepmom), “David, I’m really sorry. Michelle seems so sincere these days-it sounded like she was for you living with us. But I guess she really can’t be trusted. Bummer. I hope you didn’t get into too much trouble over this.”
I had talked to Carol over the phone and at the time Davy had gone out to visit them in Portland, Or and he did not want to come home to his mother's. He wanted to stay out there, but Doofis (Aka sperm donor, Aka alleged father) and Betty are both unfit parents and Davy and I should of been put somewhere else far away from both fuckwittages. So I had told Carol that Davy should stay there and then I had talked to my sister and I changed my mind. Because sperm donor is a child molester (once a sex offender, always a sex offender. Just ask a therapist they'll tell you the same thing.) So even though Betty is fucked up I agreed with Anna that Doofis would be worse in the long run. So Carol had been all excited about me agreeing with them and then I changed my mind. But it was not like I was medling, so I do not understand why they got so angry.
I remember when I was little, four at the OLDEST. In our house in Colorado Springs, Co. I had loved to vacuum the stairs and I was downstairs vacuuming. I was then playing with god what are the called. It was a piece of cardboard with a plastic red pen like object and there was a thin sheet on grey paper like plastic sheet that had a black piece underneath. You would draw on it and then lift the gray sheet to 'erase' it. Well anyways I was playing with that and trying to show Doofis it and I just remember him being 'busy' and blowing me off.
Another time I was trying to show him something and he was reading the newspaper and in that "in a minute" which really meant...soon you will forget about it and you will stop bothering me in the meantime. And he was always working on his lame ass jeep, that would be a another good reason to just blow me off. But my favorite was when Betty was doing some bill crap, probably going through the mail and paying off bills. I am not sure though I was still quite young. And she told Doofis to take us to the Wild Animal Park and he's like "Why don't you?!" Hello. I am right fucking here, I hate you ALL. So she was bitching at him and saying she was actually busy and wanted him to take Davy and I. I am not sure if he did or not in the end. But that's the part that sticks. I hate parents. They fuck up their kids so well.
I remember him crying when he was moving out when they were getting a divorce. Davy and I were playing Terminator on Super NES. I just remember being mad because I had to pause my game. He was crying blah blah and I was like whatever you don't give a shit. I was like in 3rd grade and I already knew.
As I aged I had Betty telling Davy and I that Doofis did not give a shit about us. I had always told myself she was wrong, I felt that somewhere some part had to care a little bit even though all of the signs pointed to NEGATIVE. So those emails were like a slap in the face, I had already known for years but I guess I was in denile some part. I would agree with Betty but hold a sliver of hope inside that she could not see or touch. Then I came to my senses and realized, I don't think he ever cared or will ever care. It was the worse stab in the back I have ever had and believe me I have had my share.
I feel so stupid for protecting both of them. I wish I had lied and made-up a story that Doofis, and told them about Betty. I should have just let CPS take Davy and myself. Both of em are definately fucked so what to lose? But we'd always lie to CPS about Betty and if they found out about Betty and her lack or parenting we could of ended up at Doofis's. And I didn't want that, even less than Betty's.
Good times. I will add more here later. I am bored for now.
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