Last night after I got off of work I watched like 20 PETA tv videos and read some articles. I have finally had the kick in the ass to make me become a full fledged vegetarian. I was only eating chicken and the rare piece of turkey but after watching the "Meet your Meat" video with Alec Baldwin...that's it. I am finally going to stop eating meat altogether, which was my initial goal it was just hard so I hadn't given it all up yet.

I can not believe the god awful things that we do to animals, millions of them everyday. For human consumption, fur coats, circuses, animal dissection. I will never participate in the dissections of animals again. And everybody I know will hear about this. I think everybody should be forced to watch PETA videos. There's a blindfold over everybody's eyes and most people dont gives a shit enough about anything but themselves to lift the blindfold. Last night has changed my life and I feel a huge sense of guilt, anger and sadness.

It's my view. If you really want to comsume the flesh of animals because you think that animals were put here for you to eat, or they just taste too good to give up. That's fine, if they humanely raise and animals to be killed I wouldn't agree with it because I do not think that we need meat to survive, we are past that now. But don't you agree that they need to at least make it a humane death? Being burned alive to remove your hair? How would you like it? If there was a people farm omg that would be suht down before they had a chance to get started. So what makes us so great that we reserve the right to torture, mame and murder innocent animals for an addition roll in our guts?

Why do people think they are so great? Because we have built so much? Because we walk upright? Yeah, whatever. I think the human race has come so far and all we are doing is destroying everything. The ecosystem, we're constantly making animals extinct. (But do keep in mind that some animals would proabably be extinct naturally) But not the hundreds daily that because of our selfishness and greed we are eradicating hundreds.

All I have to say is.... read Ishmael and really pay close attention. What do you think?

Watch "Meet your Meat" and if you're still able to eat meat even though you know and have seen for yourself that millions of animals and beaten, injected with hormones that makes them fat so fast that they're bodies can not keep up and they can not walk, they're burned alive, their throats are slit as they dangle squeeling in terror and pain. If you can still eat meat...I don't know what to tell you. But I am disappointed. If enough people stop the consumption of meat it will force the industry to humanely kill the animals at least. Please, help.

I dislike Beyonce! Okay...so PETA has written her PR and shit letters concerning her 'furs' and she has ingnored them and continued to wear the skin and fur of innocent tortured and killed animals. Why? So she can look good when there are tons of perfectly faux fur that is very authentic looking. Bitch. So now they have written a public letter for people to read and bashing her name a little by lettinng the public know about the situation. Omg if I go to one of those premieres...I would give her a piece of mind. I would wear the biggest sign under a jacket and make sure that EVERYBODY noticed what I had to say.

I am going to back track for a bit...I am not sure how long ago this was...wait I am wrong! It was Dec. 13th...I am going to post it there then...read it there if you want to hear me rant...more!

Why are boys so weird? They seriously drive me crazy! So here's how it goes...Eric use to send me text messages all of the time. Cute/funny ones like "Thinkin' of u," and he rarely sends any anymore. It's not like he's saying this kind of crap in another medium either...like email, letters whatever. Nope...just sort of stopped. Whatever. Again, boys are DUMB. It's shit like that makes girls think they're mad at them. But who knows, maybe he's just well...a typical male and they always turn dull after some time. Dull as in they don't try to do anything new and cute anymore they just sort of stop. Or maybe he is secretly holding a grudge for something. Who knows. The wonderful world of the male mind. It makes no fucking sense.

Next topic. Anybody who has not read Ishmael...dude read it. I am about half way thru it and it's great. I wish people would take this book to heart and make some fucking changes!

Today I packed up some boxes...I packed up some nicknack junk I have. I collect M&M junk, dragons, and just animals in general. I packed up that stuff so I don't have to when we move in June. I want it all just done so I get other things done and concentrate on other things. Ya know. I was a lazy ass and was up until after 3AM and plannned on getting up at 10 but when my alarm went off I had to kill it! I didn't get out of bed until 2pm!! I am the queen of lazyness. I almost crawled back into bed after getting up! The house is such a mess and everythings just BLAW! It's like what's the point of being awake! Agh. I packed up some clothes that I bought online to return so I can drop them off tommorow. I bought this bikini (yeah, wtf is wrong with me?!?! Me?! A BIKINI!?!? I think hell froze over) and it doesn't look as cute as it did in the picture, the color is a little brighter. I like dark colors. Sorry I can't stand bright colors. Not for clothing, it just looks so fugly.

Tonight I got to watch the O.C. omg I lOVE seth coehn (sp) he's so fucking cute! Yay. Then Kieta came home with three movies, "Lost in Translation," "Brother" and "In the mood for love." Which her "long lost twin brother" (this guy that she's friends with online that she has a shit load in common with!) who is way into films recommended. We watched "Lost in Translation," and it's incredibley slow. If it wasn't for Bill Murray's sense of humor it would be awful but there is some humor and the female lead has potential cuteness. They did a great job acting but I don't think it made up for the lack of story. Here's the story...

Bill Murray's character is in Tokyo filming an ad for whiskey where he meets the female lead (Charlotte I think her character name was!) where she is staying with her husband. They are both bored out of their minds, obviously depressed, and don't know what they're doing with there lives. They meet and become friends and they're bonding comforts them. Bill Murray is having problems with his wife and Charlotte is having problems with her photographer (he's working in Tokyo for the week) husband so their bond keeps pushing the bar and you're left wondering whether the next scence will be them in bed together. They do eventually end up lying on a bed talking but clothed and nothing does ever happen. It's as if they've known eachother forever and when the week is over he's going back home to L.A. and they say good-bye and hug etc. I guess you are supposed to be left with a sense of loss? Heartache for them? Well, Kieta nor I felt these emotions. It was obvious that they were going to separate like that and it was not emotional. The director chick also directed "Virgin Suicides" which I didn't really like because it was just too weird. But it was intense and alot of crazy shit happened so you kept expecting something to HAPPEN in this film but nothing happened. I personally feel that this movie was artsy and only artsy....it lacked a climax!

Brother stars Omar Epps (yum*) and some Japanese dude. Lol. Well it's actually really good! This guy from Japan moves to L.A. with his little half brother because things are too hot at home. His brother is into selling drugs and his brother Anishi beats up their supplier because he's increased his price and he's just being an asshole. Anishi is a hard ass and he can literally kill a room full os psychos before they realize he even entered the room. No joke he is just crazy. So they all end up having this big company selling and they're totally rich. But the mafia wants a 50% cut and they don't want to give it to them. So they end up in war...it gets UGLY. The entire film is filled with crazy ass bloody killing scences that just sort of happen without any warning and it's just cool.

Eric's a dork. A while ago I was asking him what he thought was gonna happen when he graduated (he's leaving in September for Tech. school in Texas) and then he'll be god knows where. His response was "I haven't thought about it, I'm a guy!" What is wrong males? How could you not think about it? Ergh. Well I hope he has fun in wherever. Kieta's mom Brenda was asking Kieta "are you sure you want to live with Michelle...I mean isn't she going to marry Eric?" Dude seriously I feel BOMBARDED. Kieta told her well she'll probably at least live with me for a year. Kieta was asking me what was going to happen when Eric left and I said I dunno because he hasn't thought about it. She agreed with me, how could you NOT think about it?!?! Lol. She mentioned, of course he has to of thought about it, because there goes his booty-call. Hah. Seriously! But whatever if he hasn't thought about then whatever...obviously he doesn't give a shit or something.

I'm being attacked from everybody. Freakin' even Davis at dinner was like "Are you guys going to get married?" Is it a conspiracy? Everybody is coming to get me...I know it they're after me!! I'm not even 21 yet and people are asking me if I am going to get married. Ew. Leave me alone, ARGH. Like okay, if it happens it happens...I'm not itchin' for anything. "What's the rush" is what I tell everybody that bugs me about it.

A week or so ago Kieta was telling about a story of a friend purposing, she starts..."Tell me if you think this is romantic or lame." This guy in Army gets some of his Army buddies to conspire on kiddnapping his girlfriend. While she's playing tag-football at church with her dad the paster, the only one who knows about the kidnapping they grab her. He puts a paper bag on her head and everything and then takes it off and proposes. Um, I think it's very yucky. An A for creativity but and F on romance. It turns out it was Jesse Stoda a friend of my sister's family. Ew. Okay....it would of been cool if he had kidnapped and taken her somewhere cool, like a week-end trip camping, or whatever. And then while they were there to pop the question but to drag her off like that...also what if the rest of her family/friends freaked out and tried to stop them and things turned ugly.